A Letter To My Younger Self

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Dear younger FZ,
I know that right now you are confused, in pain, and very frightened, but everything is going to be even better than ok. You have an injury in your left foot called Complex Regional Pain Syndrome (over time you will learn that name off by heart!), and it is a nervous system dysfunction, which means your brain is sending the wrong messages to your foot. Now, this will cause you massive amounts of pain, but the journey you go on and the people you meet are spectacular.
You will be going as an impatient to the Adelaide Women’s and Children’s Hospital, and I know this will freak you out to the point of crying in public, but your parents come with you and tell you stories about when they had to go to hospital and all the people they met, and they make you feel a lot better. When you stay at the hospital, you have lots of hard physiotherapy to get through, but you will meet your physiotherapist that helps you through the pain. You, your mum and your physiotherapist with even go to a cafe in the hospital and you will get so much cocoa in your hot chocolate it will be like heaven! You go to that hospital 3 times, the first time for 4 days, the second for 2 weeks and the last time for another 2 weeks. After the second time, you and your family go on a well overdue holiday to Adelaide. You are on the beach having lots of fun, and even though you put on lots of sunscreen, something terrible happens…your sore foot gets sunburnt! You can’t join in with any other activities that will hurt your foot, but somehow your family makes you feel very included. Always remember how great your family is! So after you finish your holiday (which will still be an amazing, fun time), you have to go back to hospital for 2 weeks. Sadly your last physiotherapist can’t have you as her patient, so you get a new one. It may feel like you are being pushed way to hard and even though after many sessions you have a bit of a cry, you learn much more and still have your mum’s cuddles and your family’s encouraging words. Plus, there is always the StarLight room where you discover a game that could almost be made just for you (spoiler alert! It is a fashion game where you have your own store and avatar and you enter outfits for fashion shows! You love it…and you sort of get a bit addicted to it!)! Once you go to the Adelaide hospital for the third time, it is also the last time!
You end up buying a wheelchair, and you go on weird types of crutches, but you get used to them both. You build up to not using crutches around the house at all and using the wheelchair only sometimes in big places, but you do have to start over because of flare ups every once in a while. You are very strong and determined, and even when you have to start over your process of walking again, you accomplish it.
You have a blog, and everyone is so supportive and encouraging that views it. You are able to talk about struggles, achievements and sometimes random stuff that pops into your imaginative brain! Oh yeah, you also name your two feet Lexi Leftie and Rainy Righty, and you have a Lexiversery once a year to celebrate how long you have been a survivor of CRPS.
Basically, your life is a roller coaster of dramatically painful lows and out of this world highs, but you always have people that love and care about you, so don’t worry, you can get through everything life throws at you! Never give up on anything little FZ!

Love your future self, FZ out!! 🙂

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Just a Kitten with a Lion’s Heart

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Howdy everybody!
I would just like to start off by saying happy New Year! I hope everybody had a great 2015 and got to celebrate the last day with lots of happiness. How was Christmas too? We had a Christmas lunch with some of our extended family, and I must say I got pretty spoiled! I hope everyone had a great, fun and exciting Christmas and New Year.
I apologise greatly for not blogging in such a long time, I have had some busy days recently but don’t worry because I am still The Fluro Zebra!
In 2015, I accomplished lots of my goals but never got round to taking them down from my dream board. Now though, I have taken them down, written on the back when I completed them and what it felt like, and collected them together so that when I am older I can look back. I had three already accomplished and they were: doing the tree pose on my left foot, going to school full time (woo hoo!) and walking without crutches (also woo hoo!). That’s right, I haven’t used my crutches or wheelchair for months and now I am going to school for the entire day! Another big thing about school is that I will be School Captain for 2016!!!! I felt so honoured to chosen and I think that this year will be my favourite for everything.

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My new dreams that are already up on my dream board and ready to be achieved are: 0 meds (which I am already lowering), jog 50m and go down a big water slide in our home town. These I am trying to work towards right now. With all my other dreams, some I am getting close to achieving, for example the fashion show dream. For my birthday this year I got two VIP tickets to a fashion show! I am so excited and I can’t wait for it! It is in March so it’s not too far away. Another example is going to a trampoline park dream. I have been practicing and practicing on a little trampoline so hopefully very soon I can go to that and have some fun!

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So, as you can see, no matter what challenges in life you are facing nothing can stop you achieving your dreams if you hold a determined heart, positive mind and always remember to laugh. Even though I still have CRPS, I have learnt how to manage the pain and reduce the symptoms, and I am so grateful for all my improvements. Two years ago I would never have thought that I would be a school captain, going to school full time and feeling like an actual kid again. Although this has been such a tough experience, I feel like I had it for a reason and now I am noticing all the things I have learnt. My mum always says that I am a kitten with a lion’s heart and I finally feel like I have found my roar!
FZ out!! 🙂

 

Random Act of Kindness: September- Nursing Home Gifts

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Hola!
Everybody knows that I love to complete very special random acts of kindness for very special people, and for this month I have chosen to give out my RAOK to some people that may seem invisible to others simply because they live out of sight – people in nursing homes. My grandma stayed in a nursing home for the last of her years and so that is another reason why I thought it would be nice to give out September’s random act to the citizens of a local nursing home. To keep my anonymity, I pre-decided to hand my gifts over to the nurse so that she could give them out to the people that she thought would love them most. Once I arrived at the nursing home, it felt a bit like a great big puzzle maze because there were different coloured  buttons we had to press and massive doors we had to pull and push…to be honest it felt a bit like an intelligence test! Thankfully I passed!! When I finally walked through the last door, the reception nurse saw me and a big warm smile came to her face. I explained what I had made and why and she responded with a mix of appreciation and sorrow in her voice, telling me that some residents don’t get a lot of visitors and some residents don’t get any visitors at all, so they would appreciate my present even more! It made me feel indescribably happy that she knew exactly who might need them most.

My gifts included a mini easel each with thirteen handmade quote cards that could be changed daily. I also selected a hanging wicker heart for all of my gifts and a sentimental foam superhero to remind the recipients of their super brave hearts.

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To learn more about the nine packages I made there is a really short video below that explains everything, but I will say that I added a hint of FZ by glitterising a couple of things in my gift. I also have a picture of my note that I wrote just under the video, so I hope you enjoy watching this little clip of photos of me making and delivering this month’s random act of kindness!

I always like to remind myself that:

“Making one person smile can change the world- maybe not the whole world, but their world.” ~Unknown
FZ out!! 🙂

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Dream it-Believe it-Achieve it!

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Hiya!
Something that I think is really important for everyone is dreams. Not only the magical ones at nighttime that can make you wake up with a sleepy grin, but the dreams you think about daily that you hope to one day achieve. All dreams come from the heart, and I like to think of the process like a dream making machine. Once your heart knows what you want, it sends a message to your head and then you can decide whether you want to start working for it to come true or to just think on it a bit longer.  

 When you have a strong dream that you want to do, it won’t usually  just happen to you, you have to do your part of the work. Like for example, my CRPS foot. I wanted to get back to walking and it didn’t happen just by me sitting in bed resting my foot. I had to work with people and do lots of difficult physio to get where I am now, walking short distances without my crutches. Aside from all those physical things I had to do, making a dream board and being able to see it everyday helped a lot too. Every morning I look up at my dream board and imagine how good it will feel once I achieve my goals so that it starts my day in a happy way. A great thing about a dream board is that you can be as creative as you like when making it. I have been  honoured to be able to see other dream boards and I noticed how all the different designs explained the people who made them. Some had pictures and words, and some had quotes and drawings. I decided to have little patterned cards that I thoughtfully pegged up on my dream board,  so that as soon as I achieve a dream I can take that card down and put a new one up. 

  I am going to keep the cards that I have completed so that I can hole punch through them and turn them into a book of memories for when I’m older. Then I can see everything I went through, all the dreams that I put up and proudly achieved and took down. I once heard that a comfort zone is a prison of your own making, so push your boundaries out wide for your dream board, especially since there is no limit to what one person can achieve.

So get out the glue gun, scissors, printer and imagination and start creating your dreams today!

FZ out!! 🙂

  

  
  
  (This picture is a collection of ideas from Google images)

Random Act of Kindness: August

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Bonjour!

I have been thinking about what my next RAOK could be lately. Then I thought, what about the park?! All sorts of kids go to the park, kids from poor families and kids from wealthy families. Kids that may face challenges, and kids that may not. The thing is you never know what type of life they are living and battles they are fighting.Sometimes tricky stuff can be invisible to strangers (for example, I have CRPS and sometimes people don’t know how tough my life can be at times). I believe that all my kindness gifts go to the right people every time, and I have seen it happen during every act of kindness I have completed in the past. In fact, I found a very special friend through one of my random acts, and she has become a really important lady to my heart. She was fighting a battle that I was not aware of at the time, and she hunted me down to let me know how appreciative she was and we have been good friends ever since.

My latest RAOK was fun to create as I went shopping at a dollar shop for playful activities that the kids could enjoy. I added a little hint of FZ by wrapping my presents in a ribbon that has an Eiffel Tower print (those who know me, know that I’m a little obsessed with the thought of Paris!). I carefully chose some popular parks and placed the gifts all wrapped in clear cellophane on benches and tables before having a quick swing and walking away. My heart felt full of joy and excitement, and although I didn’t witness the recipients faces, I could imagine massive smiles beaming!

I have included some photos below so take a peek if you would like! 😀

FZ out!! 🙂

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Poetry: Words of the Soul

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Ciao!

I recently entered a poetry competition at my school and I wanted to share my entries with you! Those people with chronic pain will understand exactly what I have written about, I am sure.

I am Kind and Unique
An ‘I am Poem’
By FZ

I am kind and unique
I wonder what my future will be like
I hear a beautiful angel humming sweetly
I see the Eiffel Tower glowing in the night
I want to live an exciting life
I am kind and unique

I pretend I feel no pain
I feel sprinkles of hope in the air
I touch the stars in the night sky
I worry about my Complex Regional Pain Syndrome
I cry about the death of my very close bunny
I am kind and unique

I understand sympathy
I say be kind to one another
I dream about reaching out to people
I try to stand out
I hope I can have my normal life back
I am kind and unique

My Pain
A ‘Ballad Poem’
By FZ

The nights are so cold,
My body feeling old,
I need to be safe,
So I go to my room,
As I assume,
That I am doomed.

People ask questions,
And give me suggestions,
But will never know what to do,
When I bite my lip,
And tighten my grip,
People wonder why.

I miss running around,
And jumping on the ground,
With nothing left to do but wait,
I have to work hard no matter the pain,
But there are always things I get to gain,
So my life is okay.

With things to do,
While I am one of the few,
Nothing can stop me now,
My mind is kept busy,
Which sometimes makes me dizzy,
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Random Act of Kindness: June 2015

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Yo!

I am so so sorry I have missed a few random acts of kindness but it was definitely only because of illness. I am feeling a lot better now, so this post is about June’s RAOK. I have made a little movie that explains each step for creating the act of kindness I chose. I decided to print out my favourite quotes and pack them into a small box…but I won’t tell you too much because the movie says it all! Just remember, a random act can be big or small.

In the words of Ellen DeGeneres, “Be kind to one another!”

FZ out!! 🙂