A Letter To My Younger Self

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Dear younger FZ,
I know that right now you are confused, in pain, and very frightened, but everything is going to be even better than ok. You have an injury in your left foot called Complex Regional Pain Syndrome (over time you will learn that name off by heart!), and it is a nervous system dysfunction, which means your brain is sending the wrong messages to your foot. Now, this will cause you massive amounts of pain, but the journey you go on and the people you meet are spectacular.
You will be going as an impatient to the Adelaide Women’s and Children’s Hospital, and I know this will freak you out to the point of crying in public, but your parents come with you and tell you stories about when they had to go to hospital and all the people they met, and they make you feel a lot better. When you stay at the hospital, you have lots of hard physiotherapy to get through, but you will meet your physiotherapist that helps you through the pain. You, your mum and your physiotherapist with even go to a cafe in the hospital and you will get so much cocoa in your hot chocolate it will be like heaven! You go to that hospital 3 times, the first time for 4 days, the second for 2 weeks and the last time for another 2 weeks. After the second time, you and your family go on a well overdue holiday to Adelaide. You are on the beach having lots of fun, and even though you put on lots of sunscreen, something terrible happens…your sore foot gets sunburnt! You can’t join in with any other activities that will hurt your foot, but somehow your family makes you feel very included. Always remember how great your family is! So after you finish your holiday (which will still be an amazing, fun time), you have to go back to hospital for 2 weeks. Sadly your last physiotherapist can’t have you as her patient, so you get a new one. It may feel like you are being pushed way to hard and even though after many sessions you have a bit of a cry, you learn much more and still have your mum’s cuddles and your family’s encouraging words. Plus, there is always the StarLight room where you discover a game that could almost be made just for you (spoiler alert! It is a fashion game where you have your own store and avatar and you enter outfits for fashion shows! You love it…and you sort of get a bit addicted to it!)! Once you go to the Adelaide hospital for the third time, it is also the last time!
You end up buying a wheelchair, and you go on weird types of crutches, but you get used to them both. You build up to not using crutches around the house at all and using the wheelchair only sometimes in big places, but you do have to start over because of flare ups every once in a while. You are very strong and determined, and even when you have to start over your process of walking again, you accomplish it.
You have a blog, and everyone is so supportive and encouraging that views it. You are able to talk about struggles, achievements and sometimes random stuff that pops into your imaginative brain! Oh yeah, you also name your two feet Lexi Leftie and Rainy Righty, and you have a Lexiversery once a year to celebrate how long you have been a survivor of CRPS.
Basically, your life is a roller coaster of dramatically painful lows and out of this world highs, but you always have people that love and care about you, so don’t worry, you can get through everything life throws at you! Never give up on anything little FZ!

Love your future self, FZ out!! 🙂

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Just a Kitten with a Lion’s Heart

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Howdy everybody!
I would just like to start off by saying happy New Year! I hope everybody had a great 2015 and got to celebrate the last day with lots of happiness. How was Christmas too? We had a Christmas lunch with some of our extended family, and I must say I got pretty spoiled! I hope everyone had a great, fun and exciting Christmas and New Year.
I apologise greatly for not blogging in such a long time, I have had some busy days recently but don’t worry because I am still The Fluro Zebra!
In 2015, I accomplished lots of my goals but never got round to taking them down from my dream board. Now though, I have taken them down, written on the back when I completed them and what it felt like, and collected them together so that when I am older I can look back. I had three already accomplished and they were: doing the tree pose on my left foot, going to school full time (woo hoo!) and walking without crutches (also woo hoo!). That’s right, I haven’t used my crutches or wheelchair for months and now I am going to school for the entire day! Another big thing about school is that I will be School Captain for 2016!!!! I felt so honoured to chosen and I think that this year will be my favourite for everything.

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My new dreams that are already up on my dream board and ready to be achieved are: 0 meds (which I am already lowering), jog 50m and go down a big water slide in our home town. These I am trying to work towards right now. With all my other dreams, some I am getting close to achieving, for example the fashion show dream. For my birthday this year I got two VIP tickets to a fashion show! I am so excited and I can’t wait for it! It is in March so it’s not too far away. Another example is going to a trampoline park dream. I have been practicing and practicing on a little trampoline so hopefully very soon I can go to that and have some fun!

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So, as you can see, no matter what challenges in life you are facing nothing can stop you achieving your dreams if you hold a determined heart, positive mind and always remember to laugh. Even though I still have CRPS, I have learnt how to manage the pain and reduce the symptoms, and I am so grateful for all my improvements. Two years ago I would never have thought that I would be a school captain, going to school full time and feeling like an actual kid again. Although this has been such a tough experience, I feel like I had it for a reason and now I am noticing all the things I have learnt. My mum always says that I am a kitten with a lion’s heart and I finally feel like I have found my roar!
FZ out!! 🙂

 

FZ’s Power Flower

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Hi-Ho!

I hope you all had a joyful Christmas just like I had with my friends and family! But today instead of talking about how nice Christmas was, I am going to talk about something I like to call my ‘Power Flower’.

A Power Flower is what I use to make me feel more determined when my optimistic energy is running on empty. To me, determination is when a switch is flicked on in your brain and your heart feels full because you know you are ready and prepared to achieve any goals you have set. Everybody needs a little extra determination sometimes no matter whether they are having a tricky challenge or something more positive happening in their life. What I do is I draw on a piece of paper a big flower. Next I think about what I really love doing that ‘powers me up’. I normally write down five different things in five different petals. You have to think really hard about it though. Then what I do is I complete one of those things everyday until I have achieved them all. Once I have finished doing all of the activities on the flower, I draw another power flower. For me, usually after I do one thing on my power flower I already will feel a bit more determined. It really helps me get back to where I was when I have a little bump in the road. For example, I will write down have a friend over, or go out for special lunch with my Mum or Dad. These things make me feel like I can do anything! I find it really helps me and soon I am back walking around the house after a hard night. I would recommend you doing something like it if you are going through a tough time. Sometimes doing something for somebody else can make you feel determined. It helps me when I do random acts of kindness. I say give it a go!

Have a fun and wonderful holiday and a magical New Year everybody!

FZ out!! 🙂

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Doubting being Different

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Yo!
The past couple of weeks have been very rough for me. I have had big episodes of migraines and my foot has been playing up again. Since it was so hard for me to walk with crutches, I was using the wheelchair instead. We had to go out lots and when we did people would stare at me, kids would ask what’s wrong with me, and it all would make me feel a bit sad that they were treating me differently. This went on for a long time and I would try to act normal, but everyone was focused on the wheelchair. But now I have really had a think about it all. I already know that everyone’s different and unique. Who cares if people treat you differently. If I’m being honest, I get a bit more respect being in a wheelchair than walking with my own two legs! Strangers were more kind and considerate to me. I have no idea why I was so sad about the situation. I know that I am unique in lots of ways, and I want to show it! From now on I am going to wear funky, fluro ears when I want to, do a bit of dancing without being embarrassed, and just be myself! Being myself is how people like me, and want to be friends with me. Now I honestly don’t care if people stare at me or talk about me, because I will take the positives out of it. All this time people have been very kind. If you are on crutches, in a wheelchair, or have some sort of a disability, I don’t think you should be ashamed of it, be proud of it! Now you can relate to even more people and you will be able to share your experiences. I know I have already done that. When people ask, I explain what CRPS is, which means that I am raising awareness of my condition as not many people have heard of it…knowledge is power! Lots of other people have shared their conditions with me too.
If I were you, I would never look at the negatives of the situation, I would keep a really positive mind! Sometimes if you talk about the issue out aloud, it can clear your mind and you can have a fresh brain.
In my last post, I was doing a random act of kindness. If you think about it, you don’t really know the story behind people. Whether have nothing going on or everything going on, it is really nice to receive a little present, kind words or letter. For example: I have a friend that has something called Aspergers Syndrome. She has trouble understanding things and reading people. Nobody knows she has Aspergers, and so people would say jokes but she would take them seriously. It really hurt her most of the time. I think that if she received a little kindness from anyone she would feel much happier.
You don’t know what is going on in people’s lives if they don’t want to show it. This is how everybody is different. You never know who needs it more, so that is why you should be joyous to everyone. I am trying to make the world a happier place, and there is always room for help…

FZ out!! 🙂

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Random Act of Kindness: October

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Hi hi!

It is October now and as I promised that I would, I have completed another random act of kindness. I like to do smaller acts of kindness throughout each day, but I also carefully plan a more thoughtful random act of kindness each month.You only need to take a look at the Kindness Blog or The Daily Good to see how many beautiful people there are in this world. Their stories have inspired me to do even more good deeds. My mission is to bring as many bright smiles to my hometown and the whole world as I can.

If you want to find out what random act of kindness that I have created and delivered this month, please click on this short video (it has a groovy soundtrack too). I hope you enjoy it!

FZ out!! 🙂

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Attitude of Gratitude

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Hello!

Today I will be talking about gratitude. The meaning of gratitude in the dictionary is:

“The quality of being thankful; readiness to show appreciation for and to return kindness” ~ Oxford Dictionary 2014.

I think this statement is a perfect definition because the way I see gratitude is to show and feel deeply in your heart, appreciation for things that you have been lucky enough to see, hear, smell, feel, experience, learn and enjoy. Let me tell you a little bit more about what I believe gratitude is, does and means to my life and could mean to yours…

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I like to imagine that there is a little blue bird inside my heart and soul that has different kinds of strengths. The small bird tweets little nothings in my ear, but to me they are big something’s. It always shares its power of optimism against that cheeky pessimism, and my beautiful bird makes me feel very grateful to have it by my side. I believe everybody has a little bird. Sometimes you just haven’t searched deep enough to find it. It did take me a while to see and hear my blue bird, but it definitely helped me gain more strength than I ever thought I had. My little blue bird symbolises my gratitude. I always try to listen to my bird, every second of every day.

I recommend everyone to have a long, relaxing think about what you are all grateful for. I have a number of things I am grateful for everyday. Here are ten things that I feel like we should celebrate all the time, but remember there are more, many more!

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1. Family… pets too!

Family and pets keep us company, show us their love, their support during bad times and they help us celebrate the good times.

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2. Friends: You can be friends with whoever, whenever!

I find it amazing how we find our friends. When you meet someone you can feel that connection and know that you will be great friends for a long time. I love how everybody in Australia can be free and meet whoever they want.

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3. Doctors… and don’t forget the nurses!

Doctors and nurses may seem a little scary at the start, but once you get to know them you find out how nice they are and that they only want to help you. When I was in hospital I met some great nurses. They would let me do their nails and they would bring me in ice-cream. They would also make me feel very comfortable when I was happy or sad. I made great connections with them.

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4. Comedy: Humor and laughter!

I believe we all need a bit of laughter in life. When you are sad humor is there when you need it most. At any time of the day a bit of comedy can lighten the mood. You know what they say, “laughter is the best medicine!”

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5. Smiles… not just your own, but others too!

It is very important to smile every day. There is nothing better than feeling good about yourself. Just one smile can lighten the day for many other people. Plus, it takes more muscles to frown than to smile! Always feel grateful for this beautiful feature on your face.

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6. Nature: Sun, flowers, insects and even the scary ones!

Nature is a big part of life. You need the sun because you need a nice glow on the skin, flowers because they smell really nice and you can make pretty things out of them and insects because… they are a part of nature!

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7. Fashion: Coco Chanel, Valentino, Pierre Cardin, Lisa Ho, Collette Dinnigan. (I love all their designs and hope to be like them when I am older!)

I have no idea what I would do without fashion! I love designing and I look up to these people. If we didn’t have fashion we wouldn’t have clothes, and if we didn’t have clothes being a fashion designer wouldn’t exist!

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8. Experience: Bad things may happen in life, but you can take the experience and use it to make you stronger!

Experience develops important self-skills in life. Sometimes you learn more during bad times than the good times, which I think is great because without the little bumps, our lives would be completely boring! Having these detours helps us grow and explore a different path. If you think about it, without these lumps and bumps in life, we would be the same people, doing the same things, the same way, every day.

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9. Other Important Things: Shelter, clothing and food!

We all need to remember how lucky we are to have these things in life. Shelter keeps us safe, clothing keeps us warm and food keeps us alive and doesn’t make us starve. Some people don’t get that, so we are very fortunate to have it.

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10. Your Own Uniqueness: You shouldn’t pretend to be someone you’re not, because everybody is unique in their own way!

Everybody is different to each other. The best way to make friends is to relax and be yourself…that’s it! I don’t like it when people try to be a duplicate of another person because I can’t see who they really are. Plus, you get the best by showing how unique you are.

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Writing lists about what you are grateful for really helps you see how and why everything that has happened to you. You are so lucky to be living in this world. I am positive that you will find your little bird, but it may not be a blue bird, it may be a pink owl or a purple eagle… Whatever you can see, shall be.

FZ out!! 🙂

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The Magic of the Classics

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Hello!

I have wanted to write for the past two weeks, but sadly I have been in too much pain with constant migraines and my frustrating CRPS foot. I am very pleased to announce I have no head pain today!!
To keep my mind distracted without thinking too hard over the past few weeks, I have watched some old classic movies in bed with my mum. We have watched:
• An Affair to Remember
• Breakfast at Tiffany’s
• To Catch a Thief
• Guess Who’s Coming to Dinner

My favourite movie was Breakfast at Tiffany’s. What I loved most about each of the old movies was the clothes the ladies wore. My favourite outfit was Audrey Hepburn’s stunning and sleek, fitted black dress that she wore in the first scene of Breakfast at Tiffany’s.
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My mum’s favourite outfit was a gorgeous, flowing and feminine strapless gown from To Catch a Thief, that Grace Kelly wore.

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In every movie, there were magnificent pieces of jewellery that had both of us exclaiming, “Wow… Oohh… Ahh… How pretty!”
If you have read my previous post, Sparkle- Shimmer- Shine, you will know that I love a bit of bling! It was like heaven when I saw all those jewels!
Mum and I both laughed when we watched how much they used to smoke back then. It was the first time I had seen a cigarette stick too! I guess it is good for our health that we don’t see that in movies anymore.
My mum gave me a makeover inspired by Audrey Hepburn, just for fun. I had a big bun just like her and a pretty necklace on. I had a slick of fuchsia pink lipstick, and pale pink stick on earrings. In the end I felt like a princess. When I sat at the dinner table, the rest of the family let me pretend I was Audrey. It was so much fun, but before I knew it the night was over and my makeup was wiped off 😦 . But I will be sure to do it again!

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What I had noticed about the women that starred in the old films, was that they were strong and they knew how to get something when they wanted it. But they were still gentle, and their voices were still calm and soothing. They showed determination, grace and a quiet confidence that inspires me to take control of Lexi Leftie! (For new readers, this is the name of my CRPS foot.) These old movies have helped me to change my feelings of pessimism (that is for you Ron) into an optimistic mindset again!

So my readers, make this day a classic one, for you can look back in your life and enjoy it yet again.

“For beautiful eyes, look for the good in others;
For beautiful lips, speak only words of kindness;
And for poise, walk with the knowledge that you are never alone.” ~ Audrey Hepburn

FZ out!! 🙂

 

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